JUST A PHASE

I am bottled, fizzy water, and you are shaking me up
You are a fingernail, running down the chalkboard
I thought I left in third grade
Now my only, consolation, is that this could not last forever
Even though you’re singing and thinking
How well you’ve got it made

Who are you?
When will you be through?

Yeah, it’s just a phase… It will be over soon
Yeah, it’s just a phase
Yeah, it’s just a phase

Call it ‘women’s, intuition’, but I think I’m on to something here
Temporaryism has been the black plague
And the Jesus of our age
I know that I sound opinionated, maybe biased
And quite possibly jaded
But sooner than later
They’ll be throwing quarters at you on stage

Who are you?
When will you be through?

Yeah, it’s just a phase… it will be over soon
Yeah, it’s just a PHASE, and I’m waiting for it to be over TOO, yeah

For the past two weeks, I was feeling down. But yesterday was a new day. :p I was full of positivity. Perhaps it’s because I missed him so much that I can’t stand being sad anymore.

My brother and I met up with Lj at Sta.Lu, went to inquire at Informatics, then went to Timezone at Rob, and watched Valkyrie. LOVES!
Jaju went to his pm classes, so Lj and I went home.

He slept over cause we missed each other. LOL. We talked about our relationship and all other stuff. I’m so lucky to have and be loved by him.
Today, we cooked some eggs with tomatoes, food tripped some more and played in the computer.
Tomorrow is another day, and we’re both SOOOOO excited! Because cause cause!!! We’re going to the FOB concert AGAIN! YEY!!!!

It’s just what we needed to make us think of the good old days. :]

We even planned for our 4th Anniversary this coming April. LOL! Whooops, I can’t say what, so as not to jinx it. Teehee
Right now, I’m blogging even though my migraine is pumping my head non-stop. It’s all a-okay!
CHEERS TO LIFE!

For the longest time of always realizing and reminding myself that I HAVE TO update my friendster blog, here I am writing, finally. Churi, hehe kc I use my multiply blog more often. :p Anyway, since my last post here was September 08 pa, I’ll start from there.

So September went on like a blurrr.. I had a misunderstanding between my brothers and their friends. Yet, I am so happy to say that we all got back in good terms on December, well except for someone though, but no biggie.
Anyway, October came like a wave of hello to escapades! hahaha :)) On the 8th, we celebrated Mhe’s bday at Mags, and it was super happy. Friends + beer + crispy pata + videoke + new friends LOVES! On the 12th, khie and I, together with lj, ger and clarence, went to Imus to celebrate the Fiesta with dada and her family We went to this ‘perya’ and super FOOD TRIP! double LOVES! Came the 17th, we had a fun roadtrip to Tagaytay, dakimbatmhe, plus lj, roger and ludi. We had another food trip ofcourse, joked around, camwhored and played card games. :))

On the month of November, the INT program had an Ilocos tour for 2 nights and 2 days. First stop was Vigan, we visited Calle Crisologo, Plaza Salcedo, the Burgos Museum, and Chavit Singson’s Baluarte. Second stop was Laoag, we toured the Malacanang of the North, it was spacious and a bit creepy :p Then we went to the Paoay Church. On our way to Pagudpud, we had a few stopovers at the Cafe Bojeador Lighthouse, the Bangui View Deck, which was spectacular, and we passed over the Patapat Bridge. Our final destination was Pagudpud. We played beach vball, buried Mhe under the white sand, haha, and just enjoyed the beach. It was the vacay we have been longing for since our thesis course came around. LOL!

On the 26th, team dakimbat with lj and kokey cla went to watch Twilight at Greenbelt. YEY!

Towards the end of November, my sister, me, lj, and emot celebrated the latter’s 21st bday at Meatshop1 & 2, and mae got smashed. There’s no need to write what exactly happened here. It would be too intruiging and funny at the same time. hahahahaha :)) CRAZY night!

To start off the month of December, team dakimbat with lj, ger and allan attended geoff’s bday. Yey booze. haha! Then we went to meet my sister and emot at the Fort. Club-hopped and stuff.. It was fun
Towards the mid of the month, I managed to meet up with my highschool kada. Xempre inuman, ndi mawawala yon. LOL! Reconciled with bebe, finally. haha!

Then, for the first time, my family didn’t stay home for Christmas. We went to the province, and slept over at Baguio, with Fuji! He was so happy and he was running aroung the hotel room. Food was GREAT and unlimited liquor til 10pm. Teeheee :p But my sis and I had a night out of the hotel with daddy We went to Giligan’s, then to some club in Nevada street. It was freeeezing! We were in miniskirts and shorts. WTF. hahaha :)) AND! we got a bit lost on our way back to the hotel BECAUSE my dad and sis were tipsy and arguing about the right way. FUNNY. :p To wrap it up, we drove for like an hour or more, and crashed the back-bumper-thingy (whatever it’s called) of the Prado. Oh dear. haha.

On the 29th, my friends and I celebrated Roger’s 21st at their house. FUN times again!
Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I began listening to Harry Potter audiobooks this December. Starting from the first one, and so forth. I am trying to bring back my old hobby as a kid, which was reading fiction. Although, in this case I wasn’t really reading. LOL. Right now, I’m saving hard cash for my own copy of the HP 1-7 boxed set which costs P7,599. I am keeping my fingers crossed for a SALE. haha :p

So anyway, we commemorate New Year’s Eve back at home with my brother’s daughter, Reira. Plus we also celebrated my mom and dad’s 23rd anniversary during the 5th of January 20o9. We ate out with Rei and Lj By the 7th, I finally finished HP 7, and learned a lot about life. YIHEE! On the 18th, Rei was christened and we had a pre-bday party for her at a chinese resto.

Last night, kim, da, mhe and lj were here, and so were rinna, lee and nash. We just had a bonding-inuman galore. ‘Cause I miss my Mapua friends so much.
AND, today is the 25th. It’s my dad’s 57th (I think) birthday. A party downstairs is happening, and I am here in my room blogging about my life late last year. LOL.
Now I just had an idea for a title of this entry. Teeeheeee :p CIAO!

I’m not scared of you nor of your so-called-muscular-whatsoever-that-is…
You’re definitely NOT a real man.  Real MEN DON’T hit girls.
So don’t be too self-claiming that you are one. NOT A CHANCE ASSSSHOLE!

As for your pesky little childish and narcissistic “girlfriends”, whose got nothing good to do but to watch anime nonsense and talk about stupid juvenile crap while consciously turning into baby whores, they are nothing but pitiful children. Their friends’ moms and families HATE them to-the-bones! They even swing from one guy friend to another. OMG so low!
If they read this, they can go crying back to your “muscular” arms now. LOL!

It’ll take A LOT before they can retrieve their reputation, or at least try to look decent, despite  their transparent slutty old selves.  HOW POOR!

I have come to rant, once more, that THE GAME IS ON.

Everyone knows I won’t put up without a fight.

So keep your hopes up and your paddles down, ’cause I’ve got more aces than your bullets.

SCRAM LITTLE KIDS!

By blood or by water, you’re all the same little garbage I can downright send to the filthy trash bin. Ciao!

^___^

For the past 3 weeks or so, I have been worrying about my birthday party, my outfit, my school load, and my whole self - to be exact.

Mahirap magplano ng party.
Mahirap magpaalam at mag explain sa mga magulang mo.
Mahirap maghagilap ng mga tao.
Mahirap maghanap ng susuotin.
Mahirap maghanap ng sapatos.
Mahirap maghanap ng time para gumala at manood ng sine.
Mahirap pakiusapan ang mga prof na makikitid ang utak.
Mahirap i-please ang prof na natutuwang nakikita kang naghihirap.
Mahirap magpa-taba.
Mahirap magpaganda.
Mahirap lahat. hehehe!

But! The only two things I would like to get from all these miseries is a great & very memorable party, and another scholarship for getting high grades [I WISH!] LOL

Kaya lng…. I’m getting lazy this term.
I just want to rest and party. It’s really not helping….

So PLEEEASEE HELP ME GOD!

Last April 28, 20o8 was our (Lj and I) 3rd anniversary. YIPEEEE ;]
Off the record for both of us. :] So yea, nothing much extravagant happened.
We
just had lunch at Jack’s Loft in Midtown. At first we were very eager
for dessert, but then after munching over our main course, we were sooo
stuffed and settled not to order anymore. LOL
Then we headed back to
school because I had a class at 3pm and decided to hear mass after. But
then, we again changed our minds and just did my Greek Vessel plate
(where I got a 1.0 btw! :D)

Oh and! Lj got his hair cut (like jakey, hahaha) and shaved off his beard too, leaving his goatee untrimmed. LOL :p

The
next day, April 29, he went home with me after class because he helped
me make my assignment for my Portfolio class. Since we got home really
late, he just slept over. :]

So on April 30, he went home, took a
bath, and went back to school despite the fact that he doesn’t have any
class. I have my Portfolio til 12pm though. Afterwards, we again went
to Midtown with Kaye, Jho and Garet (some of our AR friends aka.
Toytoys) We had lunch at Piadini(or was it Piadina? I forgot LOL) - a
verrry yummy much Italian resto. Me lurveee The three of them wanted
to watch When Love Begins, while Lj and I wanted Iron Man :]
Unfortunately, the Iron Man cinema’s air conditioning was jammed up, so
my panget and I just watched Forbidden Kingdom (which had the same
schedule like When Love) LOL the movie was funny :] 5 stars.

After
watching, we waited for our friends outside the cinema. But they
weren’t there. Hmm..We thought they left us already. LOL. So we just
had our dessert at Jack’s Loft. The ones that we were drooling over
last time. haha :p SOLB!

It turned out that our friends were at Starbucks. hehehe

And the next day was a NO-CLASSES-DAY Yipeeee

Happy Happy 28 again to my Lj! Til next year again. ^_____^

wla lang..happy day
cla and lj went to my house..tambay lang..
kumain kami ng malalaking sugpo, buko pandan salad and dinner. hehehe
we had kwentuhan about silly stuff, like childhood memories, fuji and francis feud(haha!) and other topics i cant remember right now. hahaha :p
then kanina pla, we fetched my sister in santolan station, then after mom gave us errands to buy coffee from sbux and buy some celeries, leeks, and tomatoes
omg..i saw tina pala at sbux! nagulat ako..kc ang alam ko, nasa U.S. xa, yun pla, umuwi xa, kahapon lang dumating..too bad she’s going back to the states sa next monday ata? …at..nagawa pa nia akong yayain sa six flags in illinois! ibang klase talaga.. mejo imposible! hahaha! oh i missed her jolly personality!
it was a pretty normal and steady day, but it was fun..
im going to miss lj, khie, cla, and my close friends in INT!
happy holidays everyone!

“I should have written this for you months and months ago, but I never got
the chance to… and I am deeply sorry also for not having the time to
visit you last All Souls Day. In addition, I am most apologetic for the times when you needed me, and I wasn’t there for you.”

Last summer of 2007, my family and I had our vacation off-country. As
my sister recalled that as the morning breaks during our last day
(April 16, 2007) she heard a voice calling her in her sleep. Surprisingly as we got back home, I got a very unexpected news from my bestfriend, Shiela. She messaged me through text, saying that we just lost one of our very dear bestfriend, Ruby. At first, we weren’t sure if it was true. But as we visited her wake, we were slapped by reality. Buby’s sister came crying as she saw me stepping inside the room. Indeed
she and their mom still remembered who I was, after not having to see
me for ages. And the cruel reality even killed me more during her
burial, thinking that Buby and I haven’t even seen each other for more
or less 3 whole years, after graduating in high school. We lost touch
after she erased her Friendster and changed her number a couple of
times.

Losing a friend who’s very dear to me was a bittersweet struggle – bitterness
because of the agony inside of me, telling that we will never see each
other again and do the things that we usually do; and sweetness,
because of the memories which keep on reminding me that the friendship
we had and shared can never ever be taken away from me.

Buby, I still remember our shopping days. Haha, you always had the style and the unique fashion sense that I do not possess.

I remember you told me to buy a pair of plastic earrings, shaped like a
teapot. It was very deep skyblue, and it was super cute – and a
personal favorite. Too bad…I lost it when my family and I were in my Aunt’s house in the States, like years ago. Sosyal ng earrings ko, American citizen na! haha. We
also bought ourselves the same turquoise ¾ sleeved blouses and faux
leather skirts to match! Hahaha, but then I gave the blouse to charity,
since I wasn’t using it that much, nevertheless, I still have the skirt
in my closet!

I also remember our favorite Hard Rock nights. We were still so young
with all those oldies around us on the dancefloor. Hahaha! We both,
always wanted to get into the groove no matter what, but my love for
dancing is nothing compared to yours.

Though we used to be barkadas in 5th grade, somehow we lost touch as we stepped in high school. Yet, we remained to be close friends even though we both already have different set of acquaintances. Remember in our 2^nd year, when I had a fight with *tooot* because she makes fun of you and your kikay-ness?
I hated her for underestimating you. While you were so martyr that you
never had the nerve to defend yourself. So I quarreled with her along
the corridor and while you and some other sophomores were trying to
pull us away. Hahaha! I sooo remember when you told me that deep inside, you were screaming “Go Batbat!

Hai…. I miss you so much Buby. You were one of my bestfriends, you still are, and will forever be. You were someone who accepted me for who I am, without any pretensions and doubt. You have always loved my craziness and spontaneity. And I always made you laugh your heart out. While
me, on the other hand, treasured you just as much. I will never forget
the way you catwalk and your style will always be timeless. Even my mom
and my siblings can’t forget you! Haha

I hope you know that Shiela, Giselle, Velu and I, will by no means forget you and everything about you. Yes, indeed you are physically deceased, but the lessons and memories we have of you will never ever die. We love you, and we’ll be seeing you in the afterlife! Muah! Muah! Muah!

first of all, im deeply sorry to  Lj.
i know ayaw mong
patulan ko xa and ayaw mong mag-stoop down ako sa level niya, pero i
just had to get this off my chest! so please understand.
hindi ako nangaaway sa entry na toh, im just being FRANK and HONEST.

i just want HER to know that she’s NOT PERFECT and she’s NOT A NICE PERSON (like the way she thinks she is)
to think na "MAKA-DIYOS" DAW xa….?? I DOUBT IT.
IT’S VERY QUESTIONABLE!!!!

yeah anyway, i THINK you know who you are.
magta-taglish nko d2 para maintindihan MONG MABUTI!
ang dami dami dami ko pang sasabihin, kc alam mo, sasabog na dibdib ko!
baka pag ndi ko nailabas toh, bka kung ano nalang magawa ko esp. sayo!

honestly, di ko alam kung san magsisimula.
lam mo, sayang kc i thought na okay tayo. well for me, oo..
pero for you, ndi pala….
…ISANG MALAKING NO WAY, JOSE!

bigla ko nlng malalaman na you’re talking behind my back.
..na you’re saying things like you dont like me and will never ever like the kind of person that i am.
like you said nga diba, "..merong mga taong kahit anong gawin mo o gawin nila, hindi mo tlga sila maatim na magustuhan."
..okay, so GIVEN…
pero my points are,
BAKIT KA PA NAMAMANSIN??!!!!
BAKIT KA PA NGUMINGITI SAKIN PAG NAGKAKASALUBONG TAYO??!!!
BAKIT KA PA NAKIKIPAG USAP SAKIN LIKE A NORMAL "FRIEND"????!?!?!
DI BA?!

AND BAKIT KA PA GUMAGATONG EVERYTIME NA NAGIGING BITTER AKO SA KAAWAY KO??
TAPOS SASABIHIN MO SA IBANG TAO NA, NDI KA APPROVE SA GINAGAWA KO SA KAAWAY KO?
DI BA. GET MO BA??? IHA??

NOW THAT’S WHAT I CALL PLASTIC!!!!

ANG PLASTIC PLASTIC PLASTIC PHONY ASS MO!!
MADALI NAMANG HINDI MAMANSIN DIBA? KUNG HINDI MO KO LIKE, EDI WAG MO AKO PANSININ?
wag kang ngumiti sakin ng plastic! wag mo akong kausapin na parang wala lng!!
ANG DALI DIBA?????????????????/ GOSH!

GRABEEEEH…… sa totoo lang, oo na-hurt ako kc, the fact that i wanted to be your friend,
and the fact that i thought na wla tayong sama ng loob whatsoever… yun pla ikaw tong meron, despite everything.
sinasabi/pinagkakalat mo pa sa ibang tao? am i right?

alam mo okay lng na you dont like me, ang kaso lng is you PRETENDED that as if you were my  "friend"
sana hindi nalang..

my 2nd point is, WAG KANG MAKIALAM SA AWAY KO SA IBANG TAO.
WALA, AS IN!!! WALA KA NG KEBER DUN!! omg!

stop saying na mabilis lng para sakin mang-away ng kaibigan.
oo fine cge, alam mo kung anong kwento dun.. pero hindi mo alam kung ano ang "totoong" nangyari!
and hindi mo alam ang feeling na nagka-conflict ako with a former close friend.
oo, na-hurt ako sa ginawa niya. kaya ako nagalit.
at kaya until now, bitter parin ako is because, hindi ko man lang na-feel nor narinig from her that she was sorry!
i guess pareho kaming ma-pride.. kaya hanggang ngayon, hindi pa kami nagkaka-ayos.
alam ng mga taong involved na gusto kong maging okay ulit kami, and im just waiting for her, to sincerely ask for an apology.

oh ngayon, masaya ka na? na-explain ko na sayong mabuti?
in the first place, who are you ba para pagpaliwanagan ko??

TELL ME, ANONG PAPEL MO DUN?!
ANOG PAKIALAM MO DUN???!?!
YOU ARE SUPER HALFWAY AROUND THE WORLD REGARDING THAT ISSUE!

kaya wag kang magka-kampi-kampi sa kung sino man..para kayong highschool kids!
alam kong friend xa ng friend mo, and MALAMANG, cguro kong kung ano-ano
na ang pinagsasabi ng friend mo (na friend nia), about sakin. OMG, ANG
TSISMIS NGA NAMAN TALAGA!

my next point is, what’s your problem ba kung yung friend mo eh maging close sakin?
bakit napaka BITTER mo??!!

wala naman kaming ginawagang masama skanya?
HAPPY NAMAN KAMI ALMOST ALL THE TIME!
hindi naman kami bad influence.

anong problema mo kung tinutulungan nia kami sa mga plates namin?
xa naman ang nagkukusang tumulong.. kc nga iha, yun ang ginagawa ng totoong kaibigan!
yung tumutulong without expecting anything in return!
happy naman xa na tinutulungan niya kami, kc wala naman xa maxadong subjects.

kaya wag mong q-questionin yung pag tulong nia samin!! ok!?!
wag mong sasabihin na hindi dapat niya kami tulungan kc wala naman xang makukuha from that!
omg, what kind of a "CHRISTIAN" are you?
remember the story about "The Good Samaritan"
i thought "maka-Diyos" ka? dapat alam mo yun!

next point, wag kang magjudge agad sa isang tao!
oo we all have our first impressions, pero diba.. as a person, we
eventually prove that most of our first impressions are wrong.

for example, yung negative first impression ko sa isa mong friend…
nasabi ko yun kasi hindi ko pa xa nakikilala. hindi ko pa xa nakakasama.
pero nung nagkasama na kami, natutunan kong mali pala ako.
nalaman kong mabait pala xa, kaya nag-iba yung tingin ko skanya.
so kung may narinig ka man, o may nagkwento man sayo about sa kung may
nasabi man akong bad about her, ang tagal na nun! move on!
i
understand na mag-rereact ka.. pero not to the point na magco-conclude
ka ng judgment that im a bad person (like the way you did)
at pinagkakalat nio pa ni *toooooooooooot*..or whoever!

another point is, yung sa friend ko.
oo may issue sila nung isa pa naming friend, na hindi mo naman ka-close in the first place..
hindi mo kasi alam yung mga nangyayari on both parties.
kaya YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE my friend.
WALA KANG KARAPATANG MAGTANONG KUNG BAKIT GANUN NLNG YUNG FRIEND KO SA FRIEND NAMIN!
hindi masama yung friend ko or yung friend namin. i know that for a fact.
so wag kang eepal-epal jan! kung ako nga na close friend nila eh hindi ume-epal sa conflict nila.
ikaw pang hindi close?!?? dibaaaaa??!?! gosh!!
never namin kayo pinakialaman!

ewan ko ba, maxado ba kaming pretty? (ako and *she-who-must-not-be-named*)
honestly, ngayon we think nalang na inggit lng ikaw/kayo samin kc masaya kami and lagi kaming nagtatawanan…etc.
you are too insecure to make bad judgments and wrong conclusions about us.

MEJO MAG-SCREEN KA NG "RELIABLE" SOURCES MO OKAY??!

mejo alamin mo kung sino paniniwalaan mo.

NAIINIS TALAGA AKO SA PAGIGING JUDGMENTAL MO SA MGA TAO!
di ba nga may kasabihan na, "Pagtumuro ka sa isa, apat ang nakaturo sayo!"
WAG KANG MAGMAGANDA!
WAG KANG MAGMATALINO!
WAG KANG MAG-ASAL MABAIT!
dahil sa totoo lang WALA kang alam sa MATURITY at sa RELIGION!

please lang, wag kang humingi ng tulong sa Diyos.
kasi hindi Siya tumutulong sa ka-plastikan.
ayaw ni Lord sa tsismis.
at pinaka-ayaw ni Lord sa mga hypocrites!
Siya lang ang may karapatang mag-judge sa atin!
pati ba naman dun, gusto mo Xang agawan ng trono??
oo na, POPULAR ka na!
isaksak mo sa baga mo!

WHO NEEDS POPULARITY and ATTENTION, WHEN I GOT MY REAL FRIENDS and JUSTICE&TRUTH BY MY SIDE!

Today, Lj and I cleaned up our locker because it was so full of
junk, trash and piled up old plates and there was no space anymore.
Even the door wont shut properly coz it wanted to puke all the stuff
inside it. hahahaha
After
that, we went to Lj’s house after school to visit his mom. We haven’t
seen each other in a while. I miss mommy, este, tita Elsa pla. haha!
So we got there and she was surprised coz she had no idea I was coming. haha
We chatted and watched a bit of an old movie entitled, House Arrest on HBO. hehe! 
Tita Elsa even bought & cooked me my favorite tocino coz Lj told her that i don’t like maling and corned beef. hihih
I was so full that I didn’t even eat dinner when I got home. haha.
Anyway, it was all great.